Sauteed kale is surprisingly delicious. J. combined tortellini, shrimp and kale into a delicious dinner. I love kale.
On Friday, J. made white bean kale soup - only we call it stew. Added sausage and brown rice. Delicious and we've eaten it for three days. It's amazingly delectable and when sour cream is added, even more rich and satisfying. Kale!
If you wish you could go to Reno or a casino and you can't - sticking to our budget and saving up for our 15 night cruise in 7 months - you can play Hearts of Vegas online. If you ingest two Blue Moons, you will feel just like you are in Reno only a lot quieter and no smoke. AND you're amazing hubby will cook a delicious dinner for you making it easy to eat something.
Our Internet is giving me fits this weekend - J. miraculously has a repair person coming out tomorrow 'cuz it's super slow. Ridiculous. Though for my 'pretend Reno' slot play, it managed to hold it together for the time I played.
OK. Observations over.
I lunched with H. yesterday - I try to see him every week or so. He's in Intensive Out Patient now so no real 'family sessions' to attend - which is sort of nice. J. was home all day today - nice to not have him trek to Modesto for 1/2 day or so.
H. is doing well. He looks great - gained some weight - looks healthy.
He finally shared his 'consequences' document - 25 consequences of his addiction. He's hesitated me reading it and after reading it, I get why. Many things revealed.
I wish things being revealed would end soon. Will it ever end? Sometimes, it feels like it won't ever end.
H. never says he's sorry - it's something they (addicts in recovery) don't say? And sometimes, as I read through things that were lied about or ignored, it's hard to not have him say "I'm sorry". I acknowledge that if it were a phrase he were to say, it would be constant and never ending and perhaps that's why it's not uttered. Like all addicts, H. has done and said things that are awful - and restating 'sorry' over and over might have it rendered meaningless? But us living through what we've lived through and still feeling violated and shattered, it's hard to have him not offer (at least) that once in a while.
60 Minutes is on - typical Sunday night. I'm fading fast - expedited by two Blue Moons. I have a super busy week ahead - school is back in session and the meetings are ramping up. Year-end is in progress but it's time consuming. I am working hard at making progress on that major task during the week to hopefully limit the number of weekends I have to add in to get it done. But when meetings take up hours in my week - along with doing all the things my assistant did - it's hard. I feel scattered and overwhelmed a good chunk of time. The HR director extended the posting for my assistant's job to give us more time to have applicants. We have some but none of them have me turning cartwheels at this point.
I'm going to get two frozen cream puffs out of the freezer and drizzle with a little caramel sauce - another Reno thing - usually at the buffet, that is my go to dessert. Then I'm going to wind down for the night and head upstairs. I worked on culling my room today - three HUGE bags of donation items and a bag of trash from cleaning out my nightstand. Progress! Trying not to stress out about all we have to do - and just biting the bullet and doing what we can on a regular basis.
We hope to finalize our floor plan ideas this week and send those off to the building team. We haven't found the PERFECT plan - but we've found a couple we like and we hope with notes about things we'd like to change, the builder's team can sketch out something we really love.
We also need to plan a mid-week trip up to CC so we can meet the loan people and hopefully finalize the building plans. Aiming for mid-September.
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