Crazily Redundantly Motivated

ANOTHER day of huge progress.  Starting to think the medication I started a month or so ago is jump starting my organization.  Usually, things just feel overwhelming and impossible but lately, I can 'see' what needs to be done and sketch out how to make it happen.  Instead of standing around looking at all the stuff and feeling it's impossible, we are making steady progress.  Feels AWESOME!

We took a bunch of things to New Hope - H's rehab place.  Lots of things we know they can use and other things we called and asked about.  One of the first things they try to instill in people is finding lots of other activities to do that are fun.  Addicts are so focused on their next fix, they forget how to do anything but that.  So there's a lot of effort put in to getting people out and doing - with groups and friends - to remind them there is life outside using.

We gave them a karaoke machine and 15 song disks, a brand new croquet set, 4 stadium seats, 4 basketballs, two ice chests and a vacuum.  (H. wanted the vac for their house). 

I took all the plastic shelves outside and cleaned them thoroughly.  Hosed them down and used Simple Green and a towel to get them sparking.  Then we swept the floors well, scrubbed one area where something had spilled, put the shelves back and are reorganizing as we go.  With all the stuff we gave away, we will have room on those shelves to start staging stuff for the move.  First on the list are boxes of books that we plan to keep - but no point in putting them away upstairs only to pack them again in a year. 

J. will be procuring some plastic bins at Costco this week and making trips to donation, the library and Rasputin Music in Modesto - he will have a very full four day week and the garage will continue to be more and more empty and organized.  I love it!!

H. was here today too and was able to help lift heavy things, reach things I can't reach and also did some yard work.  We got a new set of really 'big' pruners - shears, really - and they make trimming hedges so much easier!!  We filled up the yard waste bin and did a good cutting back of some of our flowering landscape plants.  H. also tried to trim the Japanese Maples in the front but the ladder isn't high enough - we'll need to call the tree trimming company but it shouldn't be too expensive 'cuz they aren't very tall. 

Our gardener officially retired so we are going to look for help - hoping to find someone more reliable and someone who can consistently do both the yard and some pruning, etc. - even if it costs a bit more, it will be worth it.

I'm going to head to work tomorrow and will undoubtedly be super productive there, too.  I've been making a list for there as well and keeping my brain organized and focused is really making a huge difference.  Yes, there is a lot of work - always has been and always will be - but I know what needs to be done and can do it. 

Congratulations to H. who celebrates 101 day sober today!  Super happy for him and proud of him.  He had some 'girl issues' this week and he handled it all very well - strong enough to say to her that while he is sorry she is upset, she's basing her upset on gossip and has no reason to think any of what was said (about H.) is real.  Yet she did.  H. told her that he can't have that kind of drama in his life at this point - that she's upset because someone said he spoke to someone else (another girl).  He said he told her 'so I can never talk to another human being or you'll be upset with me'.  Ridiculous.  I'm proud of him. 

As for the girl - I feel for her.  I wish she was stronger and more self confident to realize how silly her upset is.  But I remember those feelings in my 20's so I get it.  It takes a long time to feel so OK with yourself that nothing other people say has much influence or affect on you - and that comes with a lot of life lessons that she hasn't experienced yet. 

Fingers crossed it will all work out -

Time to start winding down for bed.  These have been two of the most productive days we've had in ages and seeing the progress is so wonderful!!  Very motivating which is a good thing 'cuz we have 52 more weekends between now and moving (roughly) and there is still a lot to do.