Monday, September 29, 2008

Son #1 Update

He now has a fever. Poor baby. Sent him back to bed with Tylenol. It looks like he won't be going to school tomorrow. He sounds stuffy. Probably just a bad cold - the fever isn't very high but I know he felt glad to have something to 'show' how bad he feels. Poor guy. He'll miss school and work again tomorrow - I hope he doesn't lose his job. He was sick a week ago, too. And I'm resisting the urge to compare this week's 'I feel terrible' with last week's 'I don't feel very well' - 'cuz I suspect his illness last week was more tired than anything else. And I won't point out that staying up until 11 or midnight every night of the week is not a wise idea. Murphy's Law: stay home when you just don't feel 'good' and you will soon wake up feeling truly HORRIBLE and have to attempt to drag yourself to where you need to be anyway 'cuz you can't keep taking too many sick days. I won't say it. No, I won't.

But I WILL be thinking it. Oh, yes I will.

I'm the mom.

Freefall

Throwing caution to the wind as I watch our economy unravel before my very eyes - and heading to Subway to pick up sandwiches for dinner. Our entire financial future is hanging on by a prayer - so what's another $20 down the drain for food? It's hot. I don't feel like cooking. I have a lot on my mind...like the state of our retirement plans; a possible new job that I'm likely applying for; etc. Added to all that is a list a mile long of THINGS I MUST DO and sadly, I feel like doing absolutely NONE OF THEM. NONE. NEVER. But I must, therefore, I will. Argh. So Subway it is. Makes the kids happy - at least for a moment, anyway.

Son #1 has been sick in bed all day. He has absolutely no fever - but his throat hurts, his head aches and his stomach is 'a mess'. I have no idea what to make of it. I don't doubt he feels crummy - he doesn't sleep all day, ever. But he is working out like a maniac, watching what he eats very carefully. I want to lecture him on the basics: eat enough to sustain your energy level and eat healthily. Get enough sleep. Etc. But he won't listen to me anyway so I save it. He'll have to learn the hard way that working out a lot combined with changing your eating habits significantly will throw your body into a tailspin of major proportion. He missed work 'cuz if he's too sick to go to school, then he's going to have to give up the $$ he loses by missing work. Oh well.

Son #2 is attempting to clean his room - which when I last checked, involved tossing all the stuff that's on his floor into his closet and closing the doors. No, I'm not kidding. He said 'I'll get it later'. I said 'why have to do it all TWICE? If it's dirty laundry, bring it downstairs NOW and sort it into the laundry hampers and you're done. Now, you'll have to do that - and do it NOW.

Fun times.

I don't know what to make of the bail out bill not passing. Part of me wants to applaud that someone out there is thinking 'hey, is this a wise idea'? And there must be a reason it didn't pass. They must realize it's a bad thing....so they stopped it. Way to go, government! The other part of me wants to scream 'hello - this is now a WORLD ECONOMIC CRISIS, you morons! Are you trying to crumble the entire world economy as we know it 'cuz if you are, you're doing a mighty fine job of it....if you're not, then figure out a way to SAY YES'. I can't believe the DOW is down over seven hundred points. Wow - that's a jolt. J. text-ed me in my budget workshop to say 'it's only down 500 something now - it was down 700 at one point'. And by the time I got to my car and headed home, it was officially down over 700. For the day.

I honestly think it's representative of where the legislature is at: if the President thinks it's a good idea and insists it's the right thing to do, it's probably the wrong thing to do. And for that, I DO wholeheartedly applaud them. It's about time! So I wait to see what they work out - I know they will work something out. They have to. There's truly no other option, as we all witnessed in today's tumble.

I know we're not alone in this. I know it's freaking out scary time right now for many Americans. I feel a sense of 'we have to DO something' - but I have no idea what that something is. Do we move everything we have in the stock market out as soon as possible? That's what everyone appears to be doing - hence the free fall - so is that the safest thing to do? And if this were 10 or 20 years ago, I wouldn't think twice about any of it - but it's not. My hubby is due to retire in less than a decade. Will that still happen? Will I end up working into my 80's because of this free fall? That's how it feels.

And then, I beat myself up because I am blessed. I have a roof over my head (a generously sized, good quality beautiful roof that I can still afford to make the payment on every month), food in the fridge, $20 to go to Subway and still have money in the bank. Still have good jobs. With good health insurance. Still have savings. So it could be worse and I know for many Americans - out of work and struggling - it is worse. Far worse. So I stop worrying so much and figure it will be what it will be. Maybe we won't retire when we thought we would. Maybe we will retire but move somewhere far less expensive to live. The market will bounce back. It always does. And we are buying low. Really low. So that's a 'good thing'.

Is it wrong to add 'our country's economy' to my list of nightly prayers? And I pray for change. Change in leadership. In every facet of my life - I pray for leadership.

Sunday, September 28, 2008

TV

I spent all summer cleaning off the Tivo [it's not really a 'Tivo' - it's the satellite cable's Digital Video Recorder - but Tivo takes less typing] in my room - I watched and/or erased about 40-60 hours of shows. It's been nice and 'clean' - not too much on in the summer to tape. I got to watch a bunch of 'older' Law & Orders that I keep on there as 'standby' - for the 30 minutes a day you CAN'T find a L&O episode on somewhere. They're on pretty much 24/7 - but I tape the really good ones so I can watch them again.

Good thing, 'cuz it's been one show after the next all week. Lipstick Jungle, One Tree Hill, Heroes, and this week, Dirty, Sexy Money. Grey's Anatomy and Ugly Betty. Pushing Daisies & Brothers and Sisters. And Ace of Cakes. Added to that is a new Survivor - and then tonight, as we're getting ready to eat dinner, we hear a promo for a new Amazing Race. YIPEE - it's one of our all time FAVORITE reality shows and we're never sure it's been renewed or not - we hit the jackpot! So now, there's too much to watch - and the Tivos are filling up really fast, already.

Soon, I'll be having trouble keeping up with watching all those shows and some will fall by the way side. Heroes is pretty close to being off my list - it's honestly just too brain taxing to try to keep up with what's happened and what's happening. Truly, I have no clue what's happened - I haven't been able to figure it out for some time - and it's probably time to move on and just acknowledge that when something takes that much concentration to watch, it's time to move on. Admittedly, I watch it while doing other stuff - so maybe I'll try just sitting on the couch and watching it. Maybe that will help.

Also, I didn't watch much Grey's Anatomy last season - just got tired of it. I watched the Season Premiere this past Thursday and it was OK - but I'm not finding the characters as compelling as I did in the first few seasons. I don't know if I'll stick with watching it or not. Time will tell. My Lion's meetings are on Thursdays (every other) and that's part of the issue - I'm not home in time to watch. Or I am home but am too tired to watch a show that goes until 10 or 11.

I just re-read my list and thought 'Holy Cow - that's way too much TV'. I'm going to have to start giving some up. "Lost" will return soon, too - it's a bit like Heroes - it may be too late for me to catch up on it but I'll try. The thing about Lost is: I know it has a defined ending. The show will only be a five year show - at least that's what they said. So at least I feel like I have a finite number of episodes to concentrate through. Heroes may go on forever - and I just can't invest that time. It's bouncing back and forth between good guys and bad guys - I can't keep up with who's on what side. 'Lost' is hard but a teeny bit easier to follow - and I really care about those characters. I don't care about any of the Heroes people.

This is an incredibly boring post - but I've been wanting to list the stuff I'm watching. Now that I have, I think it's time to limit it a bit. Hard to narrow those shows down 'cuz they are all great. I'll try to tape as much as I can and re-watch them during the summer or reruns during the holidays.

Kids

I worked this weekend - I know, I know. But I couldn't help it - the last big fall hurdle starts tomorrow - auditors here. And since I'm attending a budget conference in Sacto all day tomorrow (postponed some five or six times - I lost count), I had some stuff to take care of. I got a lot done - and brought some stuff home to work on this evening and tomorrow evening. It will be a busy week.

I was in my office yesterday - and see a kid outside my window - on the parking lot side of the fence. The gate is locked. I think 'oh, he couldn't possibly be so stupid'. I went outside, stood at the end of the ramp up to my building, as I watched one of FIVE kids climb over the fence. As he landed, I said 'now you can climb right back over'. His friends (and he) were totally shocked. I said 'the car in the parking lot wasn't a 'clue' to you that climbing over THIS FENCE was a bad idea?'. They shrugged their shoulders. Kids with absolutely no analytical skills: 'there's a car in the parking lot = someone is here. Perhaps we should not climb over the fence' never seemed to enter their mind.

I gave them my usual 'when you climb over a fence to enter the school grounds, you are trespassing' and 'when the gates are locked, the campus is closed and you should not enter the premises' speech and sent them on their merry way. They skated in the parking lot for a bit and finally moved on. They shouldn't be skating there, either, but I knew they were just doing it to irritate me. It doesn't have anywhere near the great skate locations as the inside of the grounds does - and as expected, they headed down the street shortly. I fully expected to have to chase them off the school side of the property (the district offices are on one side of the grounds and the school is on the other) but thankfully, they didn't do that.

J. worked in the yard a lot today while I worked at work. He planted the flowers I bought last week to replace those we lost - and pruned and weeded a lot. He also went to Target yesterday and bought the last two 'deck boxes' they had in stock - the huge pool cover is now stored in those bins in the side yard. The garage is looking like we might actually get a car in their shortly. H. used the shop vac to vacuum and it's looking pretty good. J. also made a trip to Goodwill and recycling on Friday (he took 1/2 day off) and that helped the garage's condition immensely. AND, he's been doing massive amounts of laundry. Oh, and right this minute, he's cooking dinner!! Isn't he the BEST?

I don't know what to say about the economic bail out package. I'm not sure it's the right thing to do - I'm not sure we should be rewarding Wall Street and those that profited from the debacle by buying those bad loans. But I guess it's the right thing to do because we are headed for a free fall. I was rereading old blog posts - and in August, 2007, I commented on how a bank had required an influx of cash - and I thought that was odd. I think we've been on the brink of collapse all this time - and it's finally imminent. I certainly want to protect our retirement savings - we're too old to be starting over. So I hope the bail out does that. I really do. I don't want to work into my 80's.

We watched the Presidential debate and felt Obama 'won'. But we admit we're biased - so who knows. I don't like McCain - I think he came across as 'gruff' and disrespectful - and he was spinning the same spin he always spins. The reuse of his previous speeches really bugs me - the bracelet story comes up at virtually any opportunity he can think of to bring it up - and I just get tired of hearing him 'spin in the wind'. And we loved the Saturday Night Live opening sketch of the Palin/Couric interview. It was 'spot on' in content and Couric's response to Palin's ridiculous responses to the questions. Tina Fey has Palin DOWN - it was amazing to me how the speech patterns, inflections, tone, etc. are SPOT ON for Palin. I was out of the room when J. started playing it (it was on You Tube well before the show aired out our way) and asked him 'is that Palin?' And he said 'no, it's Tina Fey doing Palin'. It was a great sketch.

That's it for this weekend. I worked but did get some 'home time' in, which is nice. I did nap yesterday, which I needed. And I 'slept in' until 7 both days - which is actually hard for me 'cuz I'm wired to wake up at 5...and I did but went back to sleep. The little bit of extra sleep helps a lot and I feel 'better' - ready for a busy week.

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Mix

My sons are going to be the 'acting DJs' at my sister's upcoming nuptials (only three weeks away)! J. and I are working on creating 'mix' CDs and play lists for our iPods (yes, K., we think we would also like to have an MP3 hookup - hoping that isn't going to be the 'final straw' in your long list of things to do to prepare for that event) to play during the reception.

My husband is a decade older than I am and it is our respective tastes in music that highlight the age difference more than any other area. He is sitting behind me right this minute, creating play lists - and I am amazed at how much music he has on his iTunes list. It's a pretty broad, eclectic mix and much of it is PERFECT for a party. We are also purchasing a few standards - to ensure we have the 'classic' dance songs (like YMCA, Celebration, etc. ).

My husband's teen years were in the 60's - and sadly, that is the decade where I lost my father (I was six) and so that decade is not a 'happy memory' time for me. It is a sad, "life changed FOREVER" decade...and the music of that time holds 'bad feelings' for me that are impossible to put into words. When certain songs come on the radio, I cringe. Have a sick feeling in my stomach. J. has learned to 'know' this about me - and I rarely have to say the 'code word' ('bad memories') before he changes the station.

The mix we are creating for the party will have some of 'those' songs - a few scattered in here and there among lots of other good dance tunes.

It's going to be a great time. And while the 'bad memory' songs play, I can work on overwriting hard, uneasy memories with new, happy memories. I'll be with the three men in my life, and lots of other family to celebrate a very happy occasion. AND, God willing, I will be on vacation for a week after the event - spending time piddling around my home, which is a favorite activity. The boys are excited to be 'out of school' for an extended weekend. And B. is taking a long weekend off work as well, and he's glad for that break.

Good times, happiness all around. I can't wait. And the music (based on what I'm hearing behind me) is going to be GREAT!

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Phone Call

20 years ago today, I returned a call from a message left on my answering machine.

20 years ago tonight, I stepped out of my comfort zone and met a man for a drink. At a bar. On a Sunday. A 'work night' which would normally have me curled up with a book around 9 and asleep by 10. And would never, EVER have me going out - for a drink - on a Sunday - with a man I'd never met before.

20 years ago today, my life changed forever. I didn't know it for sure at the time, but I suspected, that I had just met the man I would be spending my life with. From the minute I saw him, I just knew. Suspected. Hoped and prayed.

20 years ago tonight, I realized that God does answer prayers. He does have a plan for us. All the things that conspired to bring us together were most certainly arranged by God. There's no other logical explanation for it. None.

The rest is history.

20 years ago, I met my future husband on a blind date. And I was forever changed in that simple action - returning a phone call and agreeing to meet a blind date for a drink.

Happy Anniversary, J. Of all the anniversaries we celebrate together, this one is my favorite. This is the day I knew life was going to work out just fine.

I love you with all my heart.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Pics

We spent WAY more than my previously mentioned 'target' on family pics. Here's a link to an 'animoto' of some of the pics. The photographer took over 100 pictures - it was really hard to narrow it down. We placed an order for a lot of pictures. Good thing we don't do this very often.

http://animoto.com/play/K0a0mTC6jlBGpnAPez0T4w

I'm not sure how long I'll leave this link up - and the photographer is (hopefully, since I just emailed her asking her to) updating the animoto with more pictures. It was a fun photo shoot and I think this illustrates that well. And I have really great looking kids and a fantastically photogenic husband!

Tales of Helpers

Our cleaning lady D. is here today - she wears earbuds and chats on the phone while she works.  She is the third cleaning 'person(s)...